music & the fleeting nature of friendship

I originally wrote this in 300-character blocks. I’ve changed some word choices and expanded on some thoughts for clarity but otherwise wanted to repost this here.


I was reminded what month it was and how I have a few big 20-year anniversaries around this time.

One was that I started scrobbling the music I played. I haven’t been consistent with that in a while, but I had some pretty reliable listening habits and got some good data those first few years.

The first songs I scrobbled:

  • Le Tigre – Yr Critique (I totally did that on purpose, didn’t I…)
  • Pink Floyd – Sheep
  • Fu Manchu – Neptune’s Convoy
  • Marilyn Manson – Dope Hat
  • Sheavy – Month of Sundays
  • Le Tigre – Deceptacon
  • Tool – Crawl Away (demo)
  • The Dresden Dolls – Gravity
  • and then 15 Kyuss songs

I was crazy about Kyuss at that time. Several things contributed but my frustration of having initially heard them after they parted ways led to me being more proactive and intentionally seeking out new music on my own. I was backtracking & history-checking a lot in 2005 but new music was nigh.

I was writing often at the time. The week I signed up for an account I was talking a lot about my new kitten. It also happened to be timed with an event I worked outside in the heat, and in the post I quoted “Spine of God”: “and fry like a pig in the heart of the sun”. Yep, that sounds like 20-something me.

This combination of stoner rock nerdities (both scrobbling and writing about music) led to me meeting a musician whose music I already knew close to that same time. Retrospectively, it was early social practice and a reminder not to meet one’s heroes (though they weren’t anything to me) if you want music to remain fantastical & unbroken by human stupidity.

Alas, the nature of what I wanted with my time meant having to separate human beings from their art and see these things as unrelated entities. On the other side of things, I don’t know if that was the right move, but for a while intellectual separation helped with keeping my eye on the ball.

At this point, I’m no longer listening to one of those bands because of how they seemed as an actual human being, after I realized it was not simply dark “art” or a schtick. Several others went into “should I be listening to this anymore” territory. Now I’m more mindful of who I promote under what circumstances.

But in 2005 I was just picking through what I could to learn what worked for me and hanging out with my new, weirdo cat.

That said, it’s pretty sad to look back and realize none of the people I knew at that time came with me on my journey even though I made it easy to do so. Something-something “Johnny Blade” quote.

Fuck it, I’ll keep typing. Later that year I went to a concert alone. One person who was unnerved by the idea of a woman doing anything alone reported on my solitude to a friend, who then told me they would have gone with me. I called their bluff by inviting them to see a show later. They made excuses. Of course they did; everything had to be on their terms.

I tried again with the same person later with pre-approved music and found they kept bringing the energy of things down or trying to force me into shit I didn’t want. Since they had turned their nose entirely on heavy rock, and that’s where I was at, I decided that was that, then. Guess I was on my own if I wanted to see live music.

Then I had a brief “boyfriend” who didn’t know Nirvana. wtf. How are we supposed to talk to each other? (Not that there was much talking.) I didn’t even know that band was a marker of pop culture awareness for me until that second. Just, how? How do we live in the same universe? Nevermind indeed.

Then it was a guy whose musical interests overlapped my own. We soon got into an argument because he made an arrogant, probably-narcissistic statement I thought sucked, followed by him discounting every musical thing I said after that. His heavy interests also ended at top-list bands, where I kept digging, which was evidently a problem for both of us.

Then an old friend showed up and ruined my day by referring to music I was actively listening to (metal) with broad strokes about aggressive masculinity… I was listening to stoner/doom. Electric Wizard lyrics aside, what aggression?! Also I’m a lady, so what the hell. Nevermind this dumbass shit, too.

And more people here and there for about two years until I hit point Fuck This Shit and quit talking to those who didn’t even bother to try to meet me where I was, musically or otherwise.

Started a song blog, unofficially met my future music colleagues about five months later, and I could breathe for a while.

Typing this whole thing reminds me of the zeitgeist-related fragility of most relationships. Maybe it’s best to persistently look forward, especially in situations where people don’t hold space for shared growth & connection. Alas, I’m a sucker for hope and keep getting stuck on incurious people who don’t “yes, and?” with me.

Right as I posted this Big Biz’s “The Drift” shuffled on. “You take the east and I’ll take the west – if we meet up in the middle then we know.” Yes, exactly. Winamp Oracle has spoken. (Note: I think the song might be about people who are fake/all talk, but, close enough. Still applies.)

Anyway, I miss my weirdo cat. He didn’t really have a choice in the matter but it was nice to have some consistency regardless of my social disappointments during the 15 years he was alive.

music update time

How’s about a list of some music from this year so far. I will forget things and have undoubtedly already lost things, but it’s a start.

Conan – “Frozen Edges of the Wound
Aggressive, pummeling, heavy sludgy doom meant for grimaces and headbanging. New album out 4/25.

Kavadar – “I Just Want To Be A Sound
Bright and poppy from a band that I swear was closer to psychedelic heavy rock ten minutes ago. New album on 5/16.

Witchcraft – “Burning Cross
New album coming 5/23. I nearly had an existential crisis realizing I’ve been listening to this band just short of 20 years as I reflected on this news. I got distracted by all of the social in-breeding connected back to this band. Before the thought could settle, the source of trouble contacted me out of the blue to cause further ruckus. I handled it poorly, which is probably still better than just sending a voice clip of me screaming “FUCK!!!!”

Lisa – “Born Again
Just a single for all I know. Listened to for Doja Cat and was pleasantly surprised.

Masters of Reality – “Mr Tap N Go
Who wants to be reminded of Primus today? New album 3/28. Been a long time.

Lady Gaga – “Abracadabra
Excellent choreography. The song has a house feel to it akin to Vitalic meets pop with a sprinkle of Siouxsie Sioux snuck in there. 3/7.

Lola Young – “Messy” (live on Graham Norton)
This song came out last year but I skipped over it. I appreciate what’s going on here even though the elevator-esque genre is horrifying to my metalisms.

Chappell Roan – “Pink Pony Club” (live at the Grammys)
I’m sure this song has a bit more life left in it, but this performance felt like a scintillating goodbye to years of singing it and a solid year of her dramatic increase in popularity. Dare her to dye her hair now.

Doechii – “Denial Is A River
This would have been welcome in 1995, so it tracks that she opened the video with a sepia sitcom background… and gradually modernized it.

Peter Murphy – “Swoon
Trent Reznor did what now? SOLD! New album 5/9.

The Otolith – “Glimmer
This single came out today (for the day I’m typing this). It feels strangely short given their usual 9+ minute songs.

The Jesus Lizard – “I’m Tired of Being Your Mother
Same. These fuckin’ kids better grow up fast or git.

Gaytheist – The Mustache Stays
This just came out.

Serial Hawk – “Pulsate
There’s not a ton going on here beyond mood-setting, but, like… OMG new Serial Hawk! Album 3/21.

Year of the Cobra – “7 Years
Their new one just came out.

Amenra – “Forlorn
Speaking of YOTC, their bassist is playing in Amenra now. And new Amenra album 3/28.

Sumac + Moor Mother – The Film
100% this one is going to be interesting. 4/25.

Pigs x7 – “Stitches
4/4. Time signature or album release date? Guess you’ll have to listen to it.

Turtle Skull – Being Here
5/23. Get relaxed.

Robyn – “Dancing On My Own
This is the first actually older song here, and I’m including it for the excellent performance she had with David Byrne for the SNL50 concert.

Nirvana/Post Malone – “Smells Like Teen Spirit
Same SNL50 concert. Great job to Post Malone, and it was lovely to see 2/3 of Nirvana light up. We’ll ignore the irony of the song here. Yep, just watched it again, 10/10 no notes.

Red Fang – Deep Cuts
Well look who’s back with some fresh ridiculousness. I might need to dig through my old photos to see if one of these songs is something they performed live back in the day that didn’t make it to album. 3/14. Pie!

Ravine
Ripple Music said they were releasing their next album and the promo photo included band shirts from Black Cobra and Year of the Cobra. In short, QUE? Doth thee haveth my heart already? The last album (linked) took me right back to 2007 or 2005, browsing StonerRock(dot)com or somesuch heavy site, so it seems my curiosity it piqued.

White Hills + Gnod – Drop Out III
Space naps a-comin’. 3/21.

Alitila – “This Spruce
Industrial noise time. Disclosure: I made the art that’s on the cover of this album. Apologies to your eyeballs. 3/28.

There are other things coming out that I don’t have full info for or forgot to write down or bookmark, but… Al from Sleep/OM paired up with David Eugene Edwards from Wovenhand for a pair of songs coming out 4/25. So that’s something else to look forward to.

And finally until the next time my hand doesn’t needlessly hurt circa ten years from now,

Nasalrod – “The Maker
Watch the video if you’re a Portland-area music fan. The song came out last year but the video is new today. Them people and places sure look familiar.

Best of 2024: The Year Of Chappell Roan

And now, the music of my year.

With as hard as this year has been, I’ve had to choose my battles. A lot of music that I’d normally sample or gravitate to was set to the side as I neither wanted to ruin things with my negative moods nor could I find the energy to concentrate on anything that took more than a moment of effort. Additionally, I’m dealing with geographic loss in that I’m no longer in proximity of live music without outside help or paying for shit I can’t afford, so I’m not exactly up for dangling more lost potential in front of my face. I’ll eventually get back to some things, but for the moment, I needed to heal.

For what got lost in the anxiety and grief, some things, fortunately, didn’t. Here’s my attempt to type about what I heard this year. And I mean attempt. I started writing this weeks ago and kept, repeatedly, getting derailed by pain in my right hand so I couldn’t stay focused on writing when I felt most able to. This is very much not my best writing, and for the lack of time and wanting to move on from this year already, I have not said all I could have said. I encourage you to listen to this music – I’ve provided links where it makes sense to.


Let’s begin with what I both didn’t listen to and don’t have much to contribute on just yet. This isn’t literally everything I heard or meant to hear this year, but it should cover some bases.

Quickies and Excuses

Blood Incantation. Didn’t hate it and gave it a full listen to see if I was missing something somehow, but that was one long 43 minutes.

Gnome. Bringing silly fun back to the stoner rock genre. If you haven’t seen any of Gnome‘s videos, this is your sign.

1000mods. Love this band and Repeated Exposure is one of my favorite albums ever, but I prefer that sort of stonery sound and that was a handicap trying to hear the new album. Back in the days when I was listening to Red Fang a lot, I would have liked this more. Maybe in time I’ll have a moment with the album and it suddenly makes sense.

CastleRatEarlyMoodsCryptSermonWhores. A haiku: working for these bands / it’s hard to be objective / go see them live pls. I did give Whores a fair amount of time and will be back. Glad to see them recognized in Rolling Stone (wtf) 14 years after everyone else with ears said they were cool. Finger on the pulse!

The Jesus Lizard. Listened straight through and nothing stood out. I will probably be disowned now.

Nails. I got excited about this one but upon release my head was somewhere else entirely.

Ils. Still one of my favorite vocalists. I’ll get back to abrasive music soon enough.

Chat Pile. I am confused why this band in particular has hit the hype machine train. What about them reflects whatever about the general music-loving population? Anyway, I didn’t listen to it after the initial couple of singles/videos.

Dopethrone. Ditto. Which is weird because I probably wore my Dopethrone shirt more than any other this year. Life was killing me, hardy har har.

Dua Lipa. I was on board for this, earlier songs appealed, and then its release fell flat.

Eagle Twin & The Otolith. The album The Otolith put out in 2022 was a favorite thing, so I shouldn’t be surprised that “Crossway” was a favorite song this year.

Greenleaf. Another case of poor timing. “Breathe, Breathe Out” is a fantastic song.

Psychlona. The first couple of songs remind me a lot of why I heart stoner rock. I’m sure I’ll be listening to this more in the upcoming months.

Hermano. There’s only two studio-recorded songs here, and they’re both great. I’m not generally a fan of live recordings.

King Buffalo. How ’bout just the one song? It sounds like King Buffalo, yes.

St Vincent. Captured my attention with “Broken Man” and then the ADD took over.

Sumac. Totally forgot this happened and only just heard it.

Anciients. This came out a bit late for me to spend any real time with it, but I plan to get around to listening eventually.

Orange Goblin. I did not hear a single note of this album. Who am I anymore? I’ll get to it in time.

Ministry. I also did not hear a single note of this album.

Fu Manchu. I heard a single note and promptly decided I could not continue.

White Hills. I’m just saying the same thing over and over now.

Human Impact. RIP me.

Goat. Funeral’s on Tuesday.

Melvins. Please bring flowers.

Brume. Listened to “Jimmy” a bit early on but soul said nope. Listening to the song now, wow, I think my subconscious brain might have been trying to protect me.

Kim Gordon. The early songs were working for me but on album release, yet again, my brain was elsewhere. Despite me joking, I have yet to stop by the 3oz section of a store to recite “travel shampoo, c o n d i t i o n e r“.

Necrot. Simply fantastic cover art.

Gnod. Love the band but they put out a lot of experimental music and Spot Land didn’t work for me. Oh well, next time. The White Hills split is just around the corner.

High Desert Queen. “Ancient Aliens” was a fun video. Didn’t listen after that.

Black Pyramid. Yet another album I forgot I was listening to, but “Bile, Blame & Blasphemy” is lovely.

Slomosa, Spaceslug, any other stoner/doom/heavy album you can think of. Either I didn’t hear it, went to hear it but crapped out before it made any impact, or I didn’t know it existed. Plenty of albums that came out this year will make a better mark on my 2025.


Billie Eilish – Hit Me Hard And Soft

Some other year I might have been able to explore this album more in depth, but it released at a moment where feelings were too much and my brief listening of “Chihiro” (a fantastic song) quickly led to Emotions Time and I had to quit while I was ahead. There’s too much breathy mood going on here for me at this time. Hope the next album is more fun.


Charli XCX – Brat

Didn’t expect that name, did you.

I’ve known her likeness for some time now but hadn’t listened to her music until this year. Is it really “me”? Mostly, I’d say no. I can handle bright pop in small doses but it quickly blends into the background like capitalism’s elevator music. But the first full song I heard on account of her collaboration with Billie Eilish about did me in. Ah yes, of course, a song about having an underwear fetish. That feels real familiar to something here, hmm, can’t imagine what.

Winners have been “Guess“, “Mean Girls“, “Sympathy is a Knife“, and “360” if I want to immediately think of TikTok. The album itself as a whole is more difficult for me, making me think of the artificial fun of a DJ-led dance club, and ennnh, not my thing. But it has its moments.

Unrelated to music, the “brat” aesthetic is almost exactly the same as a website I made in 2002. A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful. /jokes no one but me understand


Rickshaw Billie’s Burger Patrol – Big Dumb Riffs

Speaking of “Brat“.

I, too, love bass.

This band is the right level of stupid to transcend genre-listeners, and for that, I am concerned that their popularity will gradually align with a crowd of zero-empathy fuckfaces I want nothing to do with. Boohoo me. We can never have nice stupid things.

Anyway, I LOVE “Body Bag” and “1-800-EAT-SHIT” has been stuck in my head since I first encountered the band via The Obelisk.

RIYL Primus.


Mannequin Pussy – I Got Heaven

Yes. Yes this.

It took me a bit to digest past “I Got Heaven” but once I did it was apparent that this album was headed into Album Of The Year territory. Such competition. Does it have to be? Well, for my preferences and interests and habits and history, it’s clear that Mannequin Pussy is hitting a lot of the marks that a lighter pop album would not. But they’re saying similar things at the same time, and hmm. Is today more drag queen or more rebel girl? Why not both. At the same time. With the underwear fetish and everything. 1-800-FK-YR-DCK. 1-888-LOL-NO-JK. 1-666-NOT-2DAY.

OK? OK! OK? OK!” has easily been one of my favorite songs of this year. Have I mentioned I love bass before? It’s so wonderfully abrasive. And powerful! That’s nice, for sure. In practice I’m into compassionate equality, but in theory, futile begging sounds quite appealing, especially in a social-political sense. We’ve had a good run on the whole capitalist patriarchy, everyone suffers but the 1% thing – time for women to run the world. For the moment, how ’bout those 1% do the begging.

If you like that one, its relatively chill counterpart is “Loud Bark” with a more transparent message.

Their up-tempo and feministic takes really hit the spot, but more recently I’ve been stuck on “I Don’t Know You“. Sounds about right for all the things that have occurred in recent history. Will healing commence upon our perpetual sadness? Given I’m still sad about shit that happened decades ago, guessing no.

I can’t finish this piece of writing without pointing out the line “and what if jesus himself ate my fucking snatch”. I did it. There you go. Where do we go from here? I automatically thought of PornHub being blocked in Florida just there because of age verification laws. Is RedTube blocked? Let’s make this happen, internet. Florida, Texas, Mississippi, Utah – they’re counting on us to deliver the targeted porn of their dreams. Bring ever-desired holy cunnilingus to their awareness and end the backwards trek from progress. Implode those tiny minds and free us all from their burden.


Idles – Tangk

The early videos all very much hit the spot. The one for “Gift Horse” especially. Stop that boogie dancing and pet the fucking bull, dude!

Turns out I didn’t like the album so much on release… but man, those early weeks. I was so excited for this one. I was certain it would transcend all. Don’t get me wrong; it’s good, but the whole thing didn’t even sort of match my repeat plays of those first songs and then my soul said no, fuck you, it’s sad time.

Given it took time for their other albums to really settle for me and they’re one of my most-played bands of the last half decade, I imagine this just needs a bit longer on the stove.


Couch Slut – You Could Do It Tonight

Heavy, abrasive, screaming nonsense I don’t understand: check, check, check. This was one of the few sludge albums I gave more than a millisecond this year.

Ode To Jimbo” is song of the year material. What would Couch Slut sound like if they were sober? What a question. Alas, I don’t think we’d have songs like this, nevermind “The Donkey” which feels like a string-of-consciousness report on an evening gone awry. The song totally reminds me of “The Three Little Pigs” by Green Jello/Jelly. You ever have a 30 year old earworm that affects your interpretation of things going on right now today? One of these days I’ll get new references. Anyway, if you’re 40-50, you’ll understand. In the interim, why aren’t all stories told like this? I would go to a slam poetry night that sounded like “The Donkey”.

Screaming.

Crying.


Ufomammut – Hidden

I’ll have you know this came out, began to make a mark, and somehow I inexplicably completely forgot it existed. Given the timing of its release and the title, well, makes sense to me. My mind was elsewhere. I wish I had more to say than “sounds like Ufomammut”, hence why I’ve sectioned them off, but… ugh. I don’t know. If you like psychedelic doom, stoner-doom, heavy stuff generally, and you don’t know Ufomammut, here’s my terrible “review” to convince you of absolutely nothing. Eventually I’ll have a working short term memory not easily affected by thinking too much of irrelevance again.


Justice – Hyperdrama

I was pleased as punch to hear the new Justice album. The first few songs were really hitting the spot, especially “Generator“…

…and then I crapped out and even the early good songs weren’t really making much of an impact anymore, either. Glad there’s more Justice in the world.

I wish that was a pun. Alas, it is not.


Heavy Temple – Garden of Heathens

Have I mentioned I like doom yet? How about bass?

Heavy Temple caught my attention with 2021’s Lupi Amoris. I heard the album kind of late but have spent a good portion of the last 2-3 years listening to it on repeat. I didn’t build much in the way of expectations for the next album, but if I had any, they were met.

To answer the question posed in the song “Hiraeth“: therapy. I’ve known people who are overly well-described by the lyrics, and what tedium it can be trying to simply speak to them on a mechanical level. Be real; fake, self-hating people are exhausting and, in my precious opinion, easy to take advantage of.

Life lessons aside, yay heavy shit!


Gojira – “Mea Culpa

Well that was fucking weird.

Seriously. People who openly, actively turned their nose on the band and made fun of Gojira fans years ago suddenly boiled up from the depths to claim awe and congratulations for the band. The fuck. I’m never trusting anyone else’s opinion again. You’re all on watch.

Good for these guys, anyway. Gojira is responsible for the best live experience I’ve ever had, so I’m glad people outside of the scene got a chance to know them. Glad metal in general got a brief moment in the sun on such a big, international stage, too. Hope that means good things for this band and perhaps metal in general. Unfortunately it probably means I’ll never be able to see this band without paying a million dollars to get a nosebleed again, but maybe now I won’t have to argue with idiots as much about music I like. ha ha. Good one. This whole post is like “omfg how dare she.”


Iota – Pentasomnia

This came out in March? The hell? Could have sworn that was three years ago.

If you’ve known me in a musical space long enough, you’ve read many an instance of me talking about how “Dimensional Orbiter” is one of the best songs ever. It’s been 15+ years of Please Sir, May I Have Another. We got Dwellers, so that’s cool, but it still wasn’t Iota. Hearing Iota had secretly gotten together again to create music and it was coming out this year was day-makin’.

Of course, I was expecting more psychedelic stoner rock and less blues, so I was a bit nervous when the first song on the album sounds so much like Dwellers. People change creatively over the course of a decade and a half, of course, and it’s not like I dislike Dwellers, but… Iota.

And then the second song happened and I breathed a sigh of relief. The album still feels like a blend of the bands, but the emotionally neutralizing psych specificity is something I wanted more of, and that’s what’s here. I’m not certain the sound of this album would have made good sense to me 10-15 years ago, but in context and with space (pun?) and age, it works quite well, and I ended up listening to it a lot on release.

I feel like I haven’t said enough, so: if you missed Iota in the 2000s and you like stoner rock, heavy rock, psychedelic, bluesy heavy music just generally speaking, you should try this. Their earlier music is more straightforward, upbeat stoner rock with a mild doom sensibility (think Red Fang and Houdini-era Melvins), so if that’s your thing, go forth and do.


Elephant Tree – Handful of Ten

Maybe the Lowrider/Elephant Tree split should be here, but…

I got completely stuck on “Try“. It took me RIGHT back to the spring of 2020. “Long Forever” from the split had a similar result. How does a band’s sound feel so strongly of an exact moment in time? I was listening to the band before then – another case of one of the best songs of all time – why 2020? But the time had a sadness to it, and when Elephant Tree leans more into the breezy sound over the doomy one, my brain thinks “this is fucking sad” and I’m inclined towards dark nostalgia, grief, missing. The song “Try” is actually about someone masking to get along and losing themselves in the process. While technically still sad, that doesn’t sound like the emotions I got from it out of the gate. But there the feelings sit, anyway.


Sabrina Carpenter – Short n Sweet

How did I go from all heavy all the time to this? I’ve always had variety and been curious in some way even when I was resisting if not disgusted by top-40 music, but metalisms became part of who I saw myself. With years like this one where I spent a lot of time with music led by women in pop, I wonder if that identity is more fractured in extremes. I could also throw this entire line of thinking in the garbage and just slap “eclectic” on my preferences.

Clearly this year’s mood wanted for some brighter sounds, and “Espresso” and “Please Please Please” had their moments. It was my first time hearing her music, so it was actually 2022’s “Feather” that caught my attention and most stood out. It’s a song about a break-up, and yep. What more do I need to say about that (give it 25 paragraphs…). I like her humor, at least, and her VMAs performance was pretty fun.


Haunted Plasma – I

It finally happened! I already knew it was going to be passably good from watching them do their thing for internet-Roadburn three years ago, but this was fantastic for my old Nine Inch Nails fan turned heavy music nerd ilk.

The first two songs are perfection. “Machines Like Us” feels like it belongs in a rainy driving scene through a dark city featuring a cape-wearing, The Crow-meets-Batman android goth kid having an existential crisis after a catalystic loss. Is it too late to get them soundtracked on Black Mirror?

The album got lost like a lot of music did once the summer hit, but it was on the road to becoming my favorite thing this year back in the spring.


REZN – Burden

I got to know REZN with 2020’s Chaotic Divine. I wrote about the album at the end of that year in a tone of gratefulness but, somehow, did not expect 2024’s album to so quickly and easily work for me. Not only that, its release was perfectly timed so that I gave it enough space without distractions. I knew pretty quickly that it was an album of the year contender.

If it weren’t for the High on Fire because-duh album or Slift capturing my attention, I wouldn’t have to question whether this was my favorite heavy thing in 2024. Like I’ve said already, this doesn’t have to be a competition, and it really isn’t – more heavy for me, please k thanx – and, besides, it’s nice to have more good things.

And yes. This was good. To spare yet more pain in my fingers from typing shit no one is going to read, I’ll focus attention on “Chasm“. Remember when I was making fun of Russian Circles for making a “fuck you, dad!” album two years back? Russian Circles’ guitarist contributed another piece of rebellious noodling to this doom trod into psychedelic existential crisis. Those lyrics: uhhh you don’t know me, stop reading my diary.

The wonder doesn’t end at the one song, and I’ve listened to this album start to finish more than most this year, so… you know… go listen to it.


Allie X – Girl With No Face

The first half of this year was all about Allie X.

I believe I was teased elsewhere first but it was “Weird World” that completely sold me. That video is fantastic… and then it was soon apparent that, spinning included, all of her videos are fantastic. “You Slept On Me” indeed. How’d I miss her music before this year? (Rhetorical. I know I get stuck in my heavy music.)

While “Weird World” felt familiar, “Off With Her Tits” felt autobiographical. I clearly remember being 12-13 really wishing I hadn’t been cursed with the imminent horrors of boobs and hoping it would never happen to me. And then it didn’t for another decade, but that didn’t stop the objectification for being Female In Public anyway.

Much of the album gives off 80s electro-goth vibes, which is hammered home with the “Black Eye” video, so if you like it dark but want to remain in a pop space, you just found your next favorite artist.


High on Fire – Cometh the Storm

Doooooooom. (Or, for that specific track: “Proceeds the Weedian, Nazareth!”)

What more do I even say about this band anymore? You want shirt jokes? Toe jokes? How bout the one about cross-dimensional twin baby Jesus? I might even be able to conjure up some Motorhead slapstick.

The facts are, as amusing as it may be to poke fun of High on Fire and Matt Pike, there’s a lot of love here. The heavy is so good. “Burning Down” was immediately Song of the Year. Of course it was. Why wouldn’t it have been? It’s made of the exact formula that made me quit trying to appeal to relative normies and exclusively pursue music in 2007. One of my favorite guitarists, bassists (baglamaists? bards?), and drummers, all doing their unique thing(s) and making the exact breed of heavy stoner-doom I love. Like, duh. Of course I like this. Add in eastern-inspired songs like “Karanlik Yol” that remind me of 2007’s “Khanrad’s Wall” and yep, this, too, is why I started Song of the Day all those years ago.

While it’s got some amazing songs, the album has points in it that lead to me spacing out for the wrong reasons. Having done the HoF thing for so long, I know that’s what’s to be expected. I appreciate the speedier attitude, but the heavy shit is where it’s at for me.

For my own selfish reasons, I hope these guys are lifers, because I can’t imagine a world without more High on Fire in it. Hope Coady sticks around for another album or two, too! Though, I’ll totally take another Big Business album first…


Oranssi Pazuzu – Muuntautuja

2020’s album was my favorite of that year. It was probably my favorite of the next, too, because I was still listening to it a whole lot, but I’m sure I said something else. Anyway, I was EXCITE for this. Sure enough, this album delivered the exact mood I was ready for. Did someone say… SATAN?! Nope, I said nothing at all, but I’ll take it.

You know when you’re in a car driving 60+ on the freeway and you open the window just a hair? Add in a lot of sacrificial screaming from the backseat (“Billy won’t stop touching me!” “Stop touching your brother!” “I. DIDN’T!”), and that’s what this album sounds like. Even relatively chill “Hautatuuli” is just idling at a stoplight, talking the kids down before another round of Shoulda Listened To My Mother.

My first listen of “Valotus” Very Much Appealed to my ridiculous horror sensibilities. We went from past-the-brink psychosis to a portal suddenly opening up, releasing an extremely displeased demon. Me being me, I laughed my ass off at that sudden switch-up. We, collectively, need to take more artistic chances into potential comedy because, that, was, awesome. It’s been months and the track still punches the gut and puts me right at the edge of “wow, that’s really something” tears.

Time hasn’t moved normally for years now, so I feel like I’ve only been listening to Oranssi Pazuzu for a few minutes and therefore I’m not qualified to discuss their likeness for anything but tour dates that aren’t happening (RIP america), but they’ve released multiple excellent albums in a row here and I feel like just maybe they’re one of the best bands going approximately right now. My biases are showing despite me intentionally setting aside other work bands, but, you know. So good.


Bongripper – Empty

Who here needs a vacation from thoughts? Talk about dooooooooooooom.

This was another album I giggled at when, during the title track, the band suddenly woke up from their doom nap to worship STHATAN. (Impatient? It starts at 8:30ish.)


Slift – Ilion

Slift has been sort of like a unique side dish in a musical buffet set-up for me, but I think this year changed things. I CONSUMED this album the second it came out and didn’t stop for like a month. At that, it had a rare amount of time given exclusively to it, no insane distractions, and me feeling relatively alright for the first time in a while and the last time for, also, a while.

This thing is a ride. You have to be prepared to listen to over an hour of music in one, complete go to contextualize the whole thing. I would recommend listening to it exactly as delivered. But, I immediately fell for “Confluence“. My personal history promptly connected it to the Myst series of games & books. I still can’t pin down exactly what about Myst it’s reminding me of, assuming it’s not a misremembered thing altogether, but its essence generally reminds me of the atmosphere of ending up in the dark red bedroom of an imprisoned son. It’s very “serious“. Slift’s song is more than background soundtrack material, having more going on generally, nevermind 30 years separating one-step-above-midi music vs doom’s shirt-wearing cousin.

Words fail me after that, so it’s appropriate that “The Words That Have Never Been Heard” follows as another go-to. Maybe it’s the lack of identifiable words or strong mental photos that drew me to this album. The reason I listened to Kyuss so much years ago is specifically because their music was like abstract art during a time when I was repelled by intention, depth, and “meaning” in music due to grief, so it seems appropriate that I would want the same out of my stoner rock journey 20 years later during similar circumstances. Perhaps this means I could have taken on classical music, but, nope, sign me up for more psychedelic tinnitus please.


Chappell Roan – The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess

I have now cried because of “Good Luck, Babe“.

I feel like I’ve been listening to Chappell Roan literally all year. First it was “Pink Pony Club” and “Red Wine Supernova” recommended by YouTube after they were on Stephen Colbert. Both songs cemented just prior to the Tiny Desk Concert video in March that took an “I think I like this” to an “alright I love this”. I remember getting emotional hearing the Tiny Desk “Casual” and “Picture You” because their essence mirrored what I’d been going through. Little did I know that feeling would get worse over the course of the year.

I soon ended up gravitating to “Super Graphic Ultra Modern Girl” in effort to take me away from myself. Defaulting focus to women isn’t a logical option for me, but in the abstract I can get on board with the fantasy of throwing men in the trash. “He didn’t ask a single question” starts the song, and good fucking god, yes, exactly. What the fuck is it with men (and boys years ago) who might bother themselves with a cheap “what’s your favorite band” but after that, nothing, zero effort. Did the men attempting to flirt at me this past year even consider me a human being? What about “my mom just died and I’m about to be homeless” did not compute? What’s the fucking point? I swear I remember I used to have meaningful conversations with people who put in real, consistent effort to be present once upon a time. Now it’s like they think they showed up and they’re obviously fantastic “just because” (no, prove it) so they’re owed attention, feelings, dates, photos, sex, and unearned trust all meanwhile ignoring that I said I don’t want to talk to drunk people ever, pretending things I’ve said or posted aren’t worth time or attention in return, throwing me into some one-dimensional fetishistic box, pouting when they don’t get their way, ignoring messages and emails, and being evasive if not straight up giving me the silent treatment because I asked for the complex emotional horrors of an honest, transparent response to a question or request even if the answer is as simple as “I’m busy right now and will get back to you later”. Wha… What do you mean NOT lie and NOT manipulate you with “secrets” & magic tricks & make-believe gifts & false charm and NOT toy with your emotions?! Fuck you, I already had a mom! And then I’m watching a married gay couple build a house talking to each other with such respect and love even in their frustrating circumstances thinking I wish I had that, realizing what I’m actually dealing with, and wanting to fucking strangle every man who ever talks to me with “intentions” again. If only it were as simple as choosing something else, but there isn’t anything else. Yes, I, too, would like to leave the planet.

What’s extra aggravating is that Chappell Roan is 15 years younger than me, echoing experiences that she was processing younger than that age gap, that I was experiencing similarly at the same age and still seem to be doing now. It’s not a one-for-one copy, but what the fuck. And then I think of an older woman whose quietly conservative, sexually judgmental weirdness complained to me about men when I was younger than Chappell Roan’s age, and I suspect not much has changed for the 50-60 year old crowd, either. It’s just a sea of toddlers, incapable of empathy, forever on the search for undeserved pre-dinner cookies peppered in cross-armed “you’re not my real mom!” outbursts. Or, in my most recent stand-out case, stonewalling then silent treatment. They didn’t want cookies ANYWAY!

And yet for my anger, disgust, and disappointment, hearing “Good Luck, Babe” reinterpreted through my heteroromantic lens, there are tears. I want there to be a day that these immature fucking dumbasses wake up and realize how badly they fucked up – not once, but repeatedly – for years. Their refusal to grow up, take accountability, be honest, and/or go to therapy, all leading to losing what could have been, and for what? In an honest space there could have been room for flexibility in addition to emotional connection, but instead they made their childish choices. I’ll now forever be pissed off and distrustful of these people because they couldn’t manage to be real with me and chose, instead, manipulation and evasiveness. But the fantastical image in my head of connection, sharing, potential futures of trust, hanging out, trips, building lives together, it’s just… there, like a wilted plant. Alone again, starving of sunlight yet again, while some adult two year old pretends like it never happened and waters any other plant in the world with his fake, empty, no-effort bullshit. Gotta feed that narcissism. I want – like Chappell Roan – karma to come in. Show them the suffering they delivered pls k thnx. And yet, still, the tears.

At least “I got a wand and a rabbit” is still a fun line. At least the drag sensibility throughout the album and its promotion feels exactly right. I’m not one for YMCA dances, but “Hot To Go” is wonderfully catchy. “I want non-fiction” – yep, yep, yep. As things are, I think we’re stuck with wigs and smut.

Long story short, Chappell Roan soundtracked my entire year.


Did you need a simple top-ten album list? Alright, here’s an attempt before I change my mind again:

  1. REZN – Burden
  2. Slift – Ilion
  3. Chappell Roan – The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess
  4. Oranssi Pazuzu – Muuntautuja
  5. Allie X – Girl With No Face
  6. Mannequin Pussy – I Got Heaven
  7. High on Fire – Cometh the Storm
  8. Iota – Pentasomnia
  9. Haunted Plasma – I
  10. Heavy Temple – Garden of Heathens

And these are the songs that Last.fm said I listened to (read: tracked, since it doesn’t record offline or YouTube listens) the most this year. Songs from 2024 in bold:

  1. All Them Witches – “Tiger’s Pit”
  2. Mannequin Pussy – “I Got Heaven”
  3. Chappell Roan – “Super Graphic Ultra Modern Girl”
  4. Mannequin Pussy – “OK? OK! OK? OK!”
  5. Paramore – “Hard Times”
  6. Allie X – “Lifted”
  7. Frankie and the Witch Fingers – “Empire”
  8. Frankie and the Witch Fingers – “Burn Me Down”
  9. Slift – “Confluence”
  10. Idles – “Meydei”
  11. Mannequin Pussy – “Loud Bark”
  12. Nine Inch Nails – “Less Than”
  13. Vitalic – “Poison Lips”
  14. Ashnikko – “Toxic”
  15. Sabrina Carpenter – “Feather”
  16. Them Crooked Vultures – “No One Loves Me & Neither Do I”
  17. King Buffalo – “Mercury”
  18. All Them Witches – “Enemy of My Enemy”
  19. High on Fire – “Burning Down”
  20. High on Fire – “Karanlik Yol”

Now bring on 2025! Unless it sucks, then fuck you and take me back to 1997 or something.

Describing songs with tarot

I was reminded that I did a tarot experiment a couple of months ago where I asked tarot what a random selection of songs were about. I should post it, I thought… and here we are. As always, I’m learning.

A Flock of Seagulls – I Ran
page of cups, ace of cups, page of swords
Moronic dude falls in love in the song and whines he wants to run from his wittle baby fweewings.

Wham – Everything She Wants
page of cups, 6 of swords, 10 of swords
Well, he’s trying to escape “her” grasp. Shitty romance moves towards failure? I don’t think he actually leaves in the song, but the essence is there.

Pat Benatar – Love Is A Battlefield
5 of wands, 4 of wands, 5 of swords
Geez, I shuffled plenty for that one. Insane. There’s literally dude’s beating each other with sticks on 5 of Wands. 5 of Swords has a battlefield look to it normally. 4 of Wands could be a marriage… or, in this case, with the other cards, the battlefield.

Fleetwood Mac – The Chain
6 of wands, 4 of swords, 3 of cups
Ego takes a nap because someone cheated? Lack of success, introverted take on that fucker over there partying when they said “forever”…

Jefferson Airplane – White Rabbit
death, 10 of swords, 9 of wands
Good lord. Transformation, failure, approaching the end of the battle. I’m not sure there’s an “I’m stoned af rn” card. Alice In Wonderland has a total nonsense vibe, so 10 of Swords tracks as far as intellectual failure, and the lyric “when logic and proportion have fallen sloppy dead” suits the card as well.

Kate Bush – Babooshka
queen of wands, temperance, king of pentacles
lol. [Edit: The song is about a wife who thinks her marriage has stagnated so she pretends to be a hot lady to flirt with her husband. Cards: hot lady, balancing over time, husband.]

Judas Priest – You’ve Got Another Thing Coming
8 of swords, death, 7 of cups
Is this targeted at the “audience” of the song? Because they’re stuck in their head and need to choose another cup, according to the singer. [Get out of your head and transform your confusion. Also from a first-person perspective, this is JP saying they’re not going to sit around stuck in a box, they’re going to choose all those cups!]

I need to get out of classic music mode and focus on songs that have lyrical meaning I can recall better.

Sleep – Dopesmoker
8 of cups, knight of cups, 5 of cups
Well. The song is literally about walking away. To go cry about spilled milk, I guess. Or “drop out of life with bong in hand” might be literally described here. Is Knight of Cups the protagonist “following the smoke”?

Suma – Let the Churches Burn
hierophant, page of cups, 6 of cups
Well that just made me roll my eyes. Really? Am I being punked? Hierophant is literally about church/traditions. 6 of cups is about the past and healing. Page of cups is an idiot daydreamer boy. The essence of the song (“LET THEM BURN!!!”) is missing here, but the start of the concept is there. Could be page of cups is the cards saying it’s an immature take. That said, not all of the lyrics are understandable, so… not entirely certain what he’s getting at.

Tool – 10,000 Days
5 of pentacles, queen of wands, knight of swords
So it’s maydork defending his mom from the “thoughts and prayers” churchy masses who had abandoned her? 5 of pentacles is the “let me in, bitches!” card in front of the church and that’s the tone of the song.

Drunk Dad – Guts
empress, devil, 4 of cups
Both obsessed and having had enough, huh? “In control of these vices” is one of the first lines. I’m not describing the song, but yes, devil.

Depeche Mode – Nothing
7 of cups, emperor, sun
“Life is full of surprises”. I can see the 7 of cups there.

Nails – You Will Never Be One of Us
high priestess, 2 of cups, 5 of cups
boohoo you can’t join the secret club because you didn’t have the password

Ladytron – International Dateline
page of cups, fool, 9 of wands
Hmm, k. Well, to me, the song sounds like the end of a bad relationship. The first and last card, ok. Why fool? Is that a nod to the literal title, of a leap in time?

Doja Cat – Ain’t Shit
9 of wands, emperor, moon
empress, chariot, knight of cups
“You kept secrets”. The song is about dumping someone who sucks on a cycle. Emperor+Moon is probably the delusion of better, especially since the next cards I drew she heads towards a knight instead.

Ministry – Jesus Built My Hotrod
emperor, page of swords, ace of wands
Well, the song is full of nonsense words… so I see the page of swords there. The one clear line tracks with ace of wands. (“I wanna love ya.”)

Chappell Roan – Super Graphic Ultra Modern Girl
fool, moon, 5 of cups
“We’re leaving the planet and you can’t come”. Is moon a lesbian card? Because, like… That’s what the fool just jumped into. 5 of cups is a disappointed sour grapes card. Boys suck so I’ll just go eat worms pussy.

Chat Pile – Dallas Beltway
7 of wands, judgment, king of cups
It’s a song about generational abuse taken to its limit. 7 of wands is about self protection. Judgment might be him thinking about his parental inheritance mixed with the tone of the song being like “well, I did the thing, fuck me up fam”. King of cups might be the negative version of the card here (emotional abuse). [Judgment could be literally taking lives. Or judging one’s supposed king of cups dad and 7 of wands defending oneself by putting a stop to the cycle.]

Whores – I See You Are Also Wearing A Black T-Shirt
ace of cups, knight of pentacles, 6 of pentacles
A lot of emotion… about slow/stopped sharing? Why you no share with me?

Black Cobra – Imperium Simulacra
9 of swords, devil, 3 of swords
“Nightmare warning envisioned” feels like that first card. “All consuming totality” is the first line, and there’s the devil. The song itself is about suffering, at core.

Red Fang – Prehistoric Dog
Alright, what the fuck is this song about?
hanged man, page of swords, moon
“HELL IF I KNOW! YOU TELL ME!” The cards are as confused as I am. Let go, it’s confusing nonsense.

Alright, my thumb hurts from shuffling now.

Best Music of 2024… So Far

How about a mid-year music update? And hell, while we’re at it, let’s just free advertise my personal best of the year so far. It’ll certainly help when I’m thinking of my favorites of 2024 in December.

I’ve been preoccupied and enjoying both environmental and sonic silence, so I haven’t heard as much new music as I’d generally like. Mean-to and will-do-eventually might come to fruition, might not, we’ll see… but here’s what I’ve heard more than a song or two from and found quality from 2024 so far.

The best of the best start-to-finish ALBUM albums, go on a ride:
Slift – Ilion
Iota – Pentasomnia
Haunted Plasma – I

Why not Iota? I’ve only been a fan since hearing “Shit Luck” going on 20 years ago now. At first I was like, well, this just sounds a lot like a heavier Dwellers, but then I remembered I like Dwellers, too, and keep returning. You might say I’m a returner… Anyway, the spacey heavy here is (chef’s kiss) and they made a cohesive album from it. Meanwhile, Slift took me on a journey. I’m now going to connect their music not only to memories of Myst (the song “Confluence” has Myst soundtrack vibes) but a bunch of life shit I don’t feel comfortable discussing on the internet today. Slift has gotten enough general praise in recent history that if you were going to hear them by now, you probably have, but I didn’t find their prior music as cohesively solid as this, so take this as your recommendation if you didn’t find their prior music worked for you. Haunted Plasma is a band I only knew of by association with other bands and their Internet Roadburn performance, with no evidence of record of said performance for me to chew on since. How can I trust a mid-pandemic brain to tell me what’s quality outside of that very moment? Turns out it was an insta-love thing after all. They’ve got ~aesthetic~ down, if pre-apocalypse sci-fi if-T2-was-a-vampire aesthetic. brb going to go generate some AI images because John Connor is dead in this timeline.

Yes please may I have some:
Allie X – Girl With No Face
High on Fire – Cometh the Storm
Bongripper – Empty

Bongripper was initially in the former category but I remembered how much mood and setting plays a part in “hearing” their music and knocked them down. It’s certainly meant to be digested as a whole album, but if you’re not prepared for 45 minutes of slow (black metal spasm on “Empty” aside), and I am often not, it doesn’t hit the same. At least they do what they do well. Is there anything for me to say about High on Fire that anyone who sees that name doesn’t already know for themselves? The album is a soul-embracing, heavy refresh in some ways, a speedy gonzales hey-‘member-Motorhead attack on the senses in others, taking me back to the first time I ever heard the band right when Death Is This Communion came out. That was goddamn 17 years ago?! Well long live daddy doom, then. Allie X is new to me this year, and certainly I was sleeping on her as the song suggests, but the album has song-by-song revealed itself as a favorite. Who knew my Depeche Mode-loving ass would appreciate some 80s-inspired gothic synth-pop? The videos (including the spinning) have been sehr wonderbar. More weird pls.

OK? OK? OK? OK! (the less digested, less heard, or singles collections):
Billie Eilish – Hit Me Hard and Soft
Black Pyramid – The Paths of Time Are Vast
Couch Slut – You Could Do It Tonight
Dua Lipa – Radical Optimism
Heavy Temple – Garden of Heathens
Idles – Tangk
Justice – Hyperdrama
Kim Gordon – The Collective
Mannequin Pussy – I Got Heaven
Rickshaw Billie’s Burger Patrol – Big Dumb Riffs
St. Vincent – All Born Screaming
Ufomammut – Hidden
Whores – War
Zombi – Direct Inject

Much of these I’ve heard part of and enjoyed but didn’t like the whole thing. Others are generally favorites who haven’t been fully digested yet. Idles, for my taste, is half absolutely fucking fantastic. Justice led with some amazing songs then fell off a cliff for my musical preferences these days. Billie Eilish’s “Chihiro” is a current favorite song this past week or two but the album largely feels foreign to my ilk. I need more time with Ufomammut… but don’t we all.

If you’re counting, that’s 20 so far. Here’s a few more that either didn’t release this year or aren’t albums.

Not albums:
Conan – DIY Series, Issue 1
A Perfect Circle/Puscifer/Primus split

Gosh, an old Tool fan with an old APC username likes the 60 split, huh? Who’d a thunk. On the flip side, gosh, an aggressive doom fan likes Conan? Gee whiz, tell me less. If you know me at all, these were easy to guess additions to my listening habits. Both have at least one good song!

Not from this year but recent and OMFG:
Frankie and The Witch Fingers – Data Doom
Chappell Roan – The Rise And Fall Of A Midwest Princess

Holy bah-geezus with the Chappell Roan this year. Seems like a whole subset of the population has gone stupid for her/them. If you’re a lady, a member of the rainbow spectrum, into pop music you can sing and dance and cry and play dress-up to… you should hear this. That Olivia Rodrigo tour was a good match. Back to what you straight men and straight nerds are here for: Frankie et al has made something just short of stoner rock for jazz fans. It’s so good and it pisses me off I didn’t hear it last year so I could throw it on some imaginary who-gives-a-shit winners list for 2023. I really need to hear their older music already.

And I’m presently looking forward to:
Fu Manchu
REZN
SUMAC
Greenleaf
Orange Goblin
Oranssi Pazuzu
Anciients
Ils

Omigawd new Anciients is coming! I already have.

If it’s not here, I haven’t heard it… or haven’t heard it enough to care. Isn’t it great I stopped listening to King Buffalo 24/7, finally? Shit I just triggered myself. MOAR SUNSETS! Hilariously, today was King Buffalo t-shirt day, so it’s not like there’s been any change in the weather at all.

sometimes I hope this torture just goes on

And just like that, it was spring again. How am I still here?

I’ve been mulling over doing a music update post for several weeks now, getting distracted by real life circumstances multiple times over on days I wanted to finally get it done. I’m certain now that I’m going to miss something I wanted to say when this thought started. But, I’ll give it a shot.

I believe we left off at Brume’s new song, “Jimmy“. Hard not to see the title or read the lyrical synopsis (it’s in the video description) and not think of a particular band and end up with “eleven has been and will be waiting” running through my head. In any case, their new album is out 5/3.

For the stonery side of doom, Heavy Temple released a new video, this time for “Hiraeth“. Got me thinking about how, every once in a while, a new band will creep up and suddenly become the thing one does, and Heavy Temple seems to be following the last-decade King Buffalo, Domkraft pipeline of “were they not always a favorite?” for me.

Speaking of stonery vids, High Desert Queen just put out one that is Highly Relevant if you understand the visual references of this blog here. If you like the movie They Live even a little bit, go watch their thing right now.

As much as I’d previously might have liked to believe that stoner rock and doom is LIFE, and I’ve definitely been piqued to hear High on Fire’s new album(!!) is coming in a mere month, there’s other music in this world and I’ve been going down separate rabbitholes.

Justice is releasing a new album! And the first two songs they’ve released have already been fully abused. “Generator” is fantastic, but wow, how did they know I needed “One Night/All Night” right now? I just linked to direct audio videos, but they have a music video now for “Generator” that’s weird and uncomfortably NSFW… unless you’re into androids or whatever the heck’s going on there. Data porn. And the Placebo lyric “woman, man, or modern monkey? just another happy junkie” just flew through my head in tandem with Goldfrapp’s line “are you human?”

Similarly NSFW, Fever Ray came out with a video for “Shiver” and I all but rooted for their business suit character who now appears to have finally gotten some after a prior video of teasing (“Kandy”). Isn’t weird music fun when they really dial up the weird shit?

Speaking of NSFW, I just told someone to remove clothes at work because they were wearing too many layers. Ahh the old double entendre. Nothing like having commercially inappropriate thoughts while you’re trying to concentrate on important stuff like, uhh, typing about music videos? Excuse me while I turn my phone face down. This is very important.

Let’s go to the fantastically mundane next. Kim Gordon just released a new album and it’s on brand. She wrote a song about, get this, a packing list. Immediately I could see myself walking through a supermarket passing the travel section and someday hearing her words in my head: “travel shampoo c o n d i t i o n e r”. I also love the dark, heavy sound of “I’m A Man“. I got stuck on the new pre-release music for a few days and will probably be back there soon.

I done fucked up and didn’t watch the new Dopethrone video in time before it was taken down by Youtube, but the first video “Life Kills You” is still up. The video that was taken down is elsewhere now (Instagram is a source), replaced with just the audio on Youtube: “Uniworse” intro’d by Dixie Dave. In case you missed the memo, Dopethrone sounds like an extra sludgy Weedeater more than Electric Wizard. I am a wearer of their t-shirts nonetheless, because I very much appreciate their dusty cracked out fuck humanity (but not really) aesthetic even if it seems I’m sooner to get stuck listening to Justice on repeat.

Another for the abrasive: Couch Slut’s “Ode To Jimbo“. I’ve not been listening to heavy-weird yell music as much as I was a decade ago (if I say Rabbits’ name three times, will they quote me from the grave?), but it’s appreciated.

Zombi has a new thing to shut your brain off to, coming now in just a week from today. Here’s “The Post-Atomic Horror” to whet your appetite. Here’s dinner and dessert. Sexy jazz saxophone comin’ at ya. The comments on that video are hilarious. What, Relapse can’t release fun shit? Even funnier that the very next thing they uploaded was a new Coffins song. Por que no los dos? Ahh, the bass sound on that Coffins track… Thank you, Coffins.

Been a good long time since I’ve listened to St. Vincent, but curiosity was there when Youtube thought I’d like to hear her new song, “Broken Man“. I don’t think it’s overt, but the comparison to Nine Inch Nails or Queens of the Stone Age is there. This video got me recommended a live St Vincent/Dua Lipa performance later that was very, welp, maybe Dua Lipa needs to walk around with a towel service. “I know. Apologies. Here’s a free towel.” I see no towels in the latest “Training Season” video that was just uploaded today. Oh, she announced a release date & title: 5/3 Radical Optimism. St Vincent’s new one is out a week earlier.

My most recent fascination this past month or so has been Allie X. I have a lot of catching up to do. I got stuck on “Bitch” for a bit. The “boom boom” thing feels weird and unwanted when you first hear it but it becomes part of the perpetual earworm, my brain repeating sad lyrics of cruel domestication in a world where the last creature I titled My Bitch is now dead and the last humans that might qualify to the song were too out of reach for these things anyway. Story of my life. Last night I got stuck on “Lifted”. Yep. Still listening to strange pop.

The video that 100% got me was “Weird World“. Did you know that video is perfection? Well, now you do. It’s got everything. Goth chickens! Juno Birch cosplay! Weird girls! Treadmills! Then I went and got intoxicated by “Black Eye” – both the proper video and the earlier visualizer. The “hit me hit me with the super bass” lines made me realize that Allie X is my age but has the voice of someone much younger. In the same, the song itself sounds like it fell out of the 80s. I’m personally reminded of Depeche Mode with her new music, but someone who actually spent time listening to goth electronic of the 80s/90s will hear other bands first.

And then there’s “Off With Her Tits“. If this song had been around when I was 12-13, I would have been 1% less annoyed with the world back then.

I don’t believe I’ve ever posted about Elliot Lee before, but somewhere near early pandemic times I was listening to “Pink” a lot. Now, a new song: “Alive, Not Well.” It feels like the song for a generation… or, like, three generations now.

Skeeve me out with her dancing on the floor of this bar, but boy is “Pink Pony Club” by Chappell Roan catchy. I first heard “Red Wine Supernova” here and missed a lot of lyrics so got the delayed fun of hearing “I heard you like magic: I got a wand and a rabbit” as it was meant with the proper music video. I’m going to lie and use that line on someone someday.

Finally because I need to stop somewhere, let’s take it back to our roots: someone posted a Monster Magnet live video and I ended up with a multi-day “Third Alternative” earworm. Since we’re talking about other beautiful people today, we’ve gotta talk Dave. He doesn’t come with the baby fresh or sultry aesthetics of some, but boy is listening to his dirty old man lyric entertaining and spot-hitting even before taking into account what an amazing frontman he is. And that performance is nearly 30 years old! I was 13 in 1995, not ready for the likes of a band like this, but it makes me wish I’d heard them much sooner. I was actually checking for something I’d written in 2004 – yes, 20 full-ass years ago – and found me writing about how cool “Third Alternative” was then, so I’ve had plenty of time to threaten others with quoted hopes for eden. Dave’s lyrics being an example, it’s probably good that I have not done that.

I’m now on paragraph 21. That is too many words. I’ve been picking at this post for hours. And I just barely scratched the surface. More soon enough.